The wolf

I can’t believe it

I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head 
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed 
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone 
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home 
There’s a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain 
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again? 
And will you never say that you loved me just to put it in my face? 
And will you never try to reach me? It is I that wanted space 

Hate me today 
Hate me tomorrow 
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you 

Hate me in ways 
Yeah ways hard to swallow 
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with 
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again 
In my sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night 
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight 
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate 
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take 
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind 
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind 

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave 
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made 
And like a baby boy I never was a man 
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand 
And then I fell down yelling “Make it go away!” 
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be 
And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?” 

For you.

J’aime le fait que ma vie va tellement bien&mieu sans vous et particulièrement sans toi. J’aime me donner raison